I Always Thought
I always thought
I wanted one person
to grow old & fat with
raise some kids with
travel a little with
what I got isn't bad
but I always wanted someone
to wake up with
on a regular basis
never really had that
had better women
(and better looking women)
than I ever dreamed of
& worse women than I ever knew existed
and last month
driving down Niagara Falls Boulevard
in the rain
I thought to myself
for the first time
"Maybe I'm supposed to be alone"
& I said it out loud
& I pulled over
cried for ten minutes
but the tears felt good
and what the hell
there wasn’t anyone there to see them